idea

So somewhere around 2008/2009 I had this idea to write a book.
Somewhere around 2010 I thought id be a gazillionaire on a book tour and showing kathie lee and that other taalking head how to put a bone to good use all while helping other recession troubled folks.
I wrote a savvy business plan. I cooked. I wrote. I researched. I chatted up my project to anyone that would sit long enough to hear about it.I developed media networking sites. Started this blog.watched Julie and Julia. I wrote some more.
Ive had a few "businessmen" offer help and wisdom, which essentially means...keep working, ill put you in touch with my people and you will give me a large cut or lemme touch your boobies.needless to say, age and experience has taught me well. This is my idea,my project,my inspiration - while a savvy person would never decline connections or opportunities, compromising my constitution is not an option.ive seen lifetime movies for women...kick rocks.
anyway, its Jan 2012 and I'm not a gazillionaire. Yet.the book is nowhere near done. Life has gotten in the way. It frustrates me.sometimes the creative well is dry. It frustrates me. The pressure I put on myself to have it completed on that presumptuous imaginary timeline, was/is stagnating. It frustrates me. Even so, if all scenarios had been ideal and all the cards fell into place and I had completed this in 2010 -it would have been complete hokey, hallmark poetesque, Sappy garbage.
I would've had to move and change my name...it wasn't that bad...but it wasn't that good either.

I just finished the egg chapter; for the third time.

I read, that Roy Kroc, the mcdonalds founder, was in his late 40s when he began that restaurant...he had an idea...its all good